Friday, August 19, 2016

A year ago today

I wrote this in my blog:

 went on the perfect date. He had messaged me on Tinder and he was a wannabe filmmaker and drives for lyft to make his money and I thought I don't want to date someone in the biz and I sadly kinda blew him off. Although later when I went to Shakespeare in the park and thought an actor was hot I thought well I would date him and he started somewhere maybe I shouldn't judge.

Well he texted me the other day saying he wouldn't normally do that but he wanted to see if I might be interested and I thought what the heck.

We went out for pizza and wine. The conversation was great from the start and the undeniable chemistry was there.

Then we went out for Churro Ice Cream sandwiches, it was clear we had a lot in common and I liked him the more and more I got to know him, We didn't want it to end so we decided to go to the Griffith Observatory and well surprise they had a huge free concert going on there so the whole hill was packed so we parked off to the side and talked, and realized we didn't want it to end there and well......The date officially ended at 2pm the next day :) 

He also asked me if I wanted to go to this Shakespeare in the park in Beverly hills and I said yes. I packed food and blankets, he brought wine and his roommate and his friend and it was nice and great and I enjoyed the company all around.
Since we were in Beverly Hills someone suggested we get Sprinkles cupcakes and well we were sold on the idea so we head over to find it will take 30 minutes to re-stalk the vending machine and there was already a long line so  my date is from Glendale and we remember that there is one in Glendale and decided to go there even though he has to drop of someone in burbank and me in Los Angeles he was all for this adventure (just what I have been looking for)
It was just lovely.

I hope I get to explore this more.

explore more...I have! A lot can happen in a year.

thousands of cheesy moments and lots of laughter.  I can’t stop falling more and more in love with that goofball with each joke.

I've learned so much about History, cars, and the world, the countless time I watched his eyes light up whenever he talks about something he loves and I as a mere mortal cannot handle the pure love radiating from him, I also love that I have gotten to branch out, grow and learn. 

We've shared everything you possibly can this year.

We've given gifts, made things for each other, gone on many adventures, trips, and many many meals.

We like each others friends. We like each other enough that when I say something wrong, fart, or am just a big dork and vice versa we still love each other.

Sometimes I just look at him and think how lucky I am to have this dream boat and such a nice guy!

We've spent the year supporting each other in every way possible.

my boyfriend is such a dork and I can’t stop smiling. It has been a year of smiles. 

a year of hugs, kisses, and ass grabs. 

a year of ups and downs but always having each others backs.  A year of him keeping me warm when I am cold. 

and lots of soda refills. 

Wednesday, August 17, 2016

date someone who loves your belly

I asked my boyfriend today if he liked my belly, he said he doesn't think about and that my belly can be however I want it to be.

I'll take it! 

Monday, August 15, 2016

Dear young ones

Listen to your elders, find inspiration where you can, and don't worry.

and watch this 

and beat to your own rhythm.

Monday, August 8, 2016

Wise words from girls whose names start with K

I think this video is a lot of me. Also if you have read my blog you know the struggles I have had dating people that shamed me for my anxiety so if you ever feel that way too, I want you to know you aren't alone. Kristen and I understand. 

Was this all of us?

i always had my head wrapped around the idea of getting into a wonderful university and getting a good job and getting married and having a family and being able to support them but for some reason now all i want to do is travel and eat new foods and meet new people and get a tan and buy a one way ticket and not come home

I grew up in a small town where this is what people did, dreamed about, and was the goal. I used to joke that I could win the nobel prize and no one would care unless there was a man by my side. 

I still think about getting married, think up wedding ideas (have a secret wedding Pinterest Board) but it's not the end goal for my life.  In fact I would be okay just doing the bottom part with someone, and if that's not in card then by myself. 

I think I found that person but you never know what life has in store for you it's also good to remember. 

I don't get modern dating.

i love when people say they “had a thing” with someone. were you in love? did you have sex? got slushies one time?

Or how about Hooking up? I never got that one. like Sex, Making out, catching fish. 

What are some modern terms you don't understand 

Saturday, August 6, 2016


no other person on this planet was made for you, they were made for themselves. love is all about choices. no one is going to be perfect for you, and i think we need to stop raising everyone on the belief that someone out there, just one other person in the whole world, was “made for you” because it isn’t true. no one is made for you, besides you. other people belong to themselves. if you want to make it work with someone, it’s about hard work, understanding, compassion, communication, and choice


Single is okay

One of the single people I would talk to about dating who is 46 by the way texted me and it was like she was sad I was now in a relationship and she's not.

always the bridesmaid never the bride she said.

I don't know what to tell someone who is single and sad about it, I think the only thing you can say is:

Stop looking for a partner. Focus on your goals and rebuilding your life. The right person will eventually find their way to you.

Now I love my boyfriend and our life and I feel so blessed (we've been saying those 3 words since the last post) but I don't think I need it to be happy. Being single isn't the worst thing world...I don't think, Love your friends, your family, go on adventures, have a pet, and hopefully, Hopefully you will find someone that will join you. IF not there is always this: 

Fact: nothing smells as good as the person you love

Even when they are kinda smelly LOL

Monday, August 1, 2016

Lots of love

For those of you who are disabled or are having a hard time finding love, Repeat after me:

My mission, should I choose to accept it, is to find peace with exactly who and what I am. To take pride in my thoughts, my appearance, my talents, my flaws and to stop this incessant worrying that I can’t be loved as I am.

You will lie to everyone you love. 
They will love you anyways.

Date someone you can be fucking weird as hell with who at the end of the day still wants to get naked with you.

It’s not okay for your partner to use any part of your identity against you – whether it’s your race, gender, disability, or anything else. And that includes your sexuality.
For example, if you’re with someone who says your bisexuality is a reason they “can’t trust you,” that doesn’t mean there’s a problem with your bisexuality.

It means your partner has some biphobic beliefs to unlearn – and that’s on them, not you.

“And just like that he picked her up and dusted her off. Without even…

This is how I feel about Waffle Fri! *butterflies* 

we have rose colored glasses for everyone we adore, EVERYONE! 


First date

hi! do you have any advice on going on a first date?

Do what makes you feel good whether that's spending 3 hours on your hair (been there done that) or just brushing your teeth. 
Wear comfortable shoes. Or at least ones you can run, jump, fight in. I also go by the rules of the great movie for a good time call and wear spanks! 
Do something you enjoy, in case the person is less than stellar. Or if you are me somewhere close to home so you can leave early. 
Be genuine.
Be safe.
Don’t expect the world.
Pack a scarf, or light jacket. 
I sound like a mom now. Just have fun, and don’t be afraid to trust your gut.