I wish I didn’t fuck everything up and be insecure and clingy. Guys at first get disgustingly excited about the concept of me but then as soon as I start liking them back they run. It’s bullshit. “You’re my dream girl” “we are going to do ____” and “I’ll take you to ____” I’m fucking sick of it and don’t want to hear anymore lies. It hurts too much to remember and have those conversations replay in my head over and over again.