Friday, June 7, 2013

Community all looking for their future.



When you are on a dating site you feel like you a speed dating, in some cases its lucky you aren't there in person and the safety of being in your room away from some of these fellows is a good thing. Its funny you'll see the same faces over and over again on different sites if you search for the same type of people on each site. People really looking for the one. I left for awhile and came back, someone even noticed saying "you changed your profile" You go on bad dates and return to the site, not giving up that all it will take is that one person to notice you (I had that once) If you've gone on good dates and want it to work but it doesn't its kinda heart breaking because you'll still see them there. It will feel like a punch in the gut.

I met someone great and we cancelled our subscriptions. I swore I couldn't go back if we ended because I would never find someone as good as him but it ended and I signed back up. Maybe I can find someone special. Maybe even more special and this time it will be different and he won't run away.

Online dating is demoralizing, intriguing and sometimes sexy, very sad but it can make a great distraction and it can also be disappointing. It what you do when your lonely like you'll magically find that person to go do stuff with and make you feel not so small in the world. You search profiles and your brain says maybe this guy would be a good match. You read through pages, make yours better, when you start talking you picture what it would be like to date this guy. Relationship porn.

A world where we judge people by photos and what little they could write down, but this is how he once found me. So I guess I can't be so harsh on it.

Most the time I just enjoy it in my thoughts I don't want to meet them. I'm not ready for it to be real.

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