Tuesday, October 19, 2010

another Doc that got me thinking

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Documentary movies good or bad always get me thinking, which of course is the point of them. I watched this one yesterday.





It was interesting to see that they really never live on their own, They shouldn't have kids which those kinds of things get me thinking.

I know that I would be a good mom. but I always wonder if I should be a mom.

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while walking in my Neighborhood about a month ago i watched a mom carry here child down the street from the school i live by, and i thought I will never be able to do that, sure I can push them in a stroller, I can walk along side them, people will be there to help me but I will never be able to do that, and I wondered if that I was ok?


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a week later from then while at the Doctors I watched a mother swing her child from her arms and thought once again I will never be able to do that, and while sure my husband could should I be really counting on him to do the things I am unable to do?

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Then I wondered if it was really fair at all to even get married, to count on someone so much, to be limited. To count on him more then I should.

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I would love nothing more to have a baby and spend my life with someone I love, but maybe its not right?


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I never wished to be any different, I've never hated God, but I think its Normal that these thoughts cross my mind.

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I think its normal that I get a bit sad sometimes


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but I am a strong girl, I do things everyday that people didn't think possible!!!

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I lived on my own for 8 years now and taken care of myself, I am sure I will find a way to make having a family work for me too!

2 comments:

k8schaaf said...

The beauty of a family is they don't care what your limitations are. They only care that you are there and they show love. You will make a great wife and a wonderful mother. I have seen some stuff on tv where there are great mothers that have even bigger limitations than you my dear and they are successful mothers. Dont doubt yourself. You are great!!!

Kelly's Adventures said...

Thanks!!!