Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Have you ever pondered weather you should be the one to add that person you like on Facebook? I have for the last 24 hours.
The reasons I thought not to
-if he likes me he'll add me
-It might seem forward, especially since this one has to keep a pretty guarded life
I keep hearing he's not that into things going through my head
-life is short go for it!
- we have mutual friends who can vouch I'm not crazy
-I've been to his house, I think you can't get more personal then being in someones house right?
- he kissed me on the cheek when I left, you don't do that to just anyone right?
-Mutual friends asked if I was already his friend on facebook.
-his good friend is suppose to add me but hasn't yet its a way for him to add me
I feel like I am just going to sit here waiting for him to add me like I am little girl with a flower just waiting. I've kinda been doing with a friend of his who is suppose to add me, it makes you feel silly.
I went for it, and I figured the worst that will happen is he won't accept that add button and maybe there will be a reason for it or maybe it wasn't the right move for me to make but then i'll know and can move on. Life is short!!
Now I feel like I am going to be waiting around for him to hit that add me button, and by the way I have always had in the past the people I like or really want to hear from seem to suck at internet communication which could make this a long wait.
I'm hooked up on heart monitors for 24 hours. I feel like a Robot with all these wires coming out of me, The Cardiologist says he is sure I am fine but of course test everything out, mostly to set me fears aside and maybe reduce some of my anxiety.
So I am going to go out today and do the things I think I've felt funny about and go for a long run.
Monday, June 7, 2010
Two very dear friends of mine had a going away party last night, While it was one of the saddest fun nights of my life its very sad to see them go, but Austin I will go its a mission now!!
The party seemed almost very grown up, a moving away party, where we had dinner (such good Vegetarian Lasagna, Mashed Potatoes, and Garlic Bread) it was had this huge house in the hills and we sat out on this beautiful large balcony eating and talking with friends.
We then all hung out and awesome music was played, and friends we're made. Then My dear friend who was leaving him and I sat down and had a good long talk and then everyone headed over to the after party. Then they drove me home and we ended with a tearful goodbye.
Its very sad you know, but I know we'll visit and I also know its going to be amazing for them.
I am so blessed by those in my life.
Even though sometimes I get frustrated I really do love them.
I have been feeling great. I think the meds are helping.
I also met someone I really like and things seem to be going well *fingers crossed*
My friend Anthony (one of the best drummers I know) is going to teach me the drums!!! UMMM HOO-to-The-Ray that like a life long dream!!
I forgot to tell you about the BBQ I went to last weekend, It was from my Neighbors and at first is was odd but I got to talking to people and actually ended up talking to this guy the Whole night, and we played beer pong (my 1st time) and I am terrible at things involving hand eye coordination but I nailed one and it was beautiful and everyone started jumping around and cheering for me. It was just good people, good food, good conversation and really it doesn't get better.
one of my closest friends came and we ended the night talking and it just felt very good!!
Life is good my friends life is good!!