Wednesday, February 24, 2010

The future

We all have this dream life in the future, but I sometimes hate that I do as I think if we just stopping thinking sometimes it will be much Grander then we all really think and it will surprise us.

but here are some of the things I want, that I can have without spoiling surprises...I think.

I want to have kids, Even if I adopt when I am 35 after never getting married, I know I will be a good mom and Its something I really want




I have a dream house all planned out in my head, but I may not end up living there especially staying in California. but perhaps its not really what your house looks like but who and what you have to make it a home. There are two things I know for sure, I want Chalk Board paint in my Kitchen and a teal colored bedroom (mind you someday someone might not like if our bedroom is painted teal which in that case the laundry room can be that color, but I just like bright colored walls and I feel in love with Teal paint when I saw it in a house) Once a friend and I were going to have Tiffany color walls.


I picture a mirror like this, filled with things that we both love, quotes and pictures, that head band I will place on for a dinner party, that hat and tie he puts on to look dashing.




I want to make movies, even if they don't make a lot of money if I am passionate about them I want to make them, and I want the people that inspire me so to create them to be around.


I want to work a lot with music and film and will have a lot of it in my films.


I also want to tell stories that have never been told before, Inspire people, make them feel something, teach them something, Even in my Horror film there is a lesson to be learned and beautiful moments


and the dream match

Mainly he is goofy and fun. Makes me laugh, up for an adventure even if that adventure is watching a new film!


Someone I can talk to hours and hours


and sometimes not talk


My Partner in crime


My best friend


Someone who understands me and I feel like will always be there for me, even when we disagree and even when we are mad

Him and I together


Finding happiness in life together because I truly have come to realize being happy is all that matters.


and he'll probably have some sort of musical talent as that is a popular trend in my dating habits (but I am not a groupie!!)



Who knows who will be my friends down the road, we always hope that we will have the same friends but if I have one true friends standing by my side, This is all that will matter


and well me:

I will keep doing what makes me feel good, Happy, beautiful, and inspired until the day that perhaps these other things come together.


I will wait to share little moments with someone, anyone and spread love to all those that I can.


I will go wherever like takes me, and it will be a grand adventure.


I cannot express to you how much I love this photo, and how much it makes me think of someone when I look at it!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

a little more about love

“Where’s my love? When am I going to lay under the stars, in someone’s arms? When is someone going to kiss me so sweetly in the morning? When am I going to run into someone’s arms? When is someone going to hug me from behind and whisper ‘I love you’? Well whenever that is, I can wait - not because I’m strong enough to be alone, but because I’d rather wait than rush and get broken.”


“One night the moon said to me, “If he makes you cry why don’t you leave him?”. I looked at the moon and said… “Moon, would you ever leave your sky?”

I like this but I mean if a guys is a jerk to you, leave the sky.


I believe that someday you'll find me, whisk me away, marry me, and love me like I love you.


“I always wonder why I never met you before I did, and why we never got the chance to start earlier than we did. Then I realized I met you the exact second I was ready to truly appreciate you.


A guy out there was meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, your soul mate, the one you can tell your dreams to. He’ll brush the hair out of your eyes. Send you flowers when you least expect it. He’ll stare at you during the movies, even though he paid $8 to see it. He’ll call to say goodnight or just cause he is missing you. He’ll look in your eyes and tell you, you’re the most beautiful girl in the world, and for the first time in your life, you’ll believe it.”




I can't even begin to tell you....

How much I love things like this:

I think it would be a dream come true if I was part of one!!!

The 30 Most Satisfying Simple Pleasures Life Has To Offer

1. Sleeping In on a Rainy Day – As the rain beats lightly against the window, you nestle your head deeper into your pillow. The sound is soothing and your bed feels like a sanctuary. There is no place you would rather be.

2. Finding Money You Didn’t Know You Had – You reach into your pocket and find a $20 bill from the last time you wore these jeans. You aren’t rich, but you are richer than you were a second earlier.

3. Making Brief Eye Contact with Someone of the Opposite Sex – You pass her on the street or in the subway. She glances up at you momentarily, making direct eye contact in a way that seems to communicate a subtle curiosity. For a split second it makes you think… and then it’s gone.

4. Skinny Dipping – There is something mysteriously liberating about being naked in a body of water. You are naked, but it feels natural, a sense of unrefined freedom.

5. Receiving a Real Letter or Package via Snail Mail – E-mail has become the primary source of written communication. Most snail mail these days is junk mail. When you check the mail and find a real letter or package from someone you know, excitement overtakes you as you tear into this rare gift.

6. Making the Yellow Light - It’s one of the most common simple pleasures, the act of beating the pack. As you blaze through the yellow light you glance in your rearview to see all the cars behind you stopping at the red light. Yes! You made it!

7. Telling a Funny or Interesting, True Story - One of the most enticing roles you lead in life is that of the storyteller. You love to share stories, especially those that will captivate your audience with deep curiosity and humor. There are few things more satisfying than telling a true story that others enjoy listening to.

8. Seeing a Friend Stumble Over Himself – As you walk across the street with your friend, he fails to accurately address the curb on the other side. He trips and stumbles around momentarily before regaining his footing, then swiftly attempts to play it off like nothing happened. This can be a hilarious sight if the moment is right.

9. Hearing the Right Song at the Right Moment - It doesn’t matter what the setting is, hearing the right song for that moment is one of those simple pleasures in life that instantly lifts your spirits. You could be driving home from work, hanging out at a bar with friends, or jogging. When the right song rattles your ear drums the entire meaning of life seems crystal clear.

10. The First Sip of a Beverage When You’re Thirsty – You just finished mowing the lawn or taking a long jog. The only thing on your mind is an ice-cold glass of water. When you are really, really thirsty, that first sip of any liquid beverage is sheer bliss.

11. Catching a Glimpse of Bare Skin on the Opposite Sex – For guys, it’s when the waitress bends over a little too far. For girls it’s seeing that buff guy in a Speedo. Either way, when you see a bit more skin than you were expecting on the opposite sex, you can’t help but to smirk on the inside.

12. Saying the Same Thing Simultaneously – There is a moment of silence. Then all of the sudden you and your friend blurt out the same exact set of words simultaneously. This rare occurrence is something to smile about.

13. The Pull-Through Parking Spot – You pull into a parking spot and are delighted to see the availability of the parking spot immediately in front of you. You pull through to the spot in front so that when you return to the car you can drive forward out of the parking spot. Why? Because driving backwards is a pain in the butt.

14. Realizing You Have More Time to Sleep – Something abruptly awakens you and you think it’s time to get up. Then you squint over at your alarm clock and realize you still have 2 more hours to sleep. A warm euphoric feeling shoots though your body as you glide gracefully back to your dreams.

15. People Watching – Sitting there on your bench you can see people in every direction. Tall people, small people, thin and plump. Blond, brunette, and redhead alike. Each of them has a different stride and a unique expression. As you drift from body to body you are mesmerized by what you see.

16. Putting On Clothes Straight from the Dryer – As soon as the dryer buzzes, you pull out your clothes and put them on. They feel soothingly warm on your skin and emit a fresh-scented aroma into the air. A sentiment of ease comes over you as you head out to conquer the day.

17. A Familiar Smell – You just pulled into your parent’s driveway and opened the car door. You haven’t been home in a long while. You smell familiarity in the air, the scent of a large pine tree in the neighbor’s yard. As you head through the front door, more familiar smells consume your senses. Gosh, it feels good to be home…

18. The Feeling You Get When Your Idea Works – You have been struggling to resolve a complex problem all day and you just can’t seem to get it right. Filled with frustration, you decide to exercise one last idea before calling it a night. You’ve had many ideas before that failed miserably… but this time it works.

19. Fresh, Clean Bed Sheets – You yank at the corner of the bedspread to create just enough space to slide your body under the freshly cleaned sheets. The sheets feel cool to the touch. Everything seems so clean, like nobody has ever slept in this bed before.

20. A Beautiful View – As the car veers around the side of the mountain you gaze out the passenger window. It’s a clear, sunny day and you can see the entire valley below filled with wild flowers and bright green vegetation. The scenery reminds you of something you once saw in National Geographic. But here it is live, right before your eyes.

21. Reminiscing About Old Times with Your Closest Friends – Pink Floyd once said “the memories of a man in his old age are the deeds of a man in his prime”. There is no simple pleasure more satisfying than recounting the greatest moments of your life with your closest friends who lived these moments alongside you.

22. Receiving an Unexpected Compliment – It’s been an average day. Nothing really great has happened, but nothing terrible occurred either. This monotonous day has put you in a dreary mood. Unexpectedly, an older, attractive lady taps you on the shoulder, calls you “handsome” and says she loves your shirt. The day just got a whole lot better.

23. Having a Good Laugh – Laughter is the greatest cure of all. Life is extraordinary in the moments when you are laughing so hard you can barely breathe. These moments of deep laughter are divine in the sense that they cleanse your mood and set your mind on a positive track.

24. The Feeling After a Healthy Workout - It’s a giddy feeling of self accomplishment; the one true activity that actually makes you feel better and look better simultaneously. When you walk out the front door of the gym you are on top of the world.

25. The Celebration in the Instant Something Makes Sense – Even now that it has explained to you for the third time, you just don’t understand how it works. Everyone else seems to understand but you. Then out of the blue the dots connect in your mind. You finally get it, and it feels great!

26. Relaxing Outdoors on a Sunny Day – As you relax sprawled out in a lawn chair, the sun warms your skin and a light breeze keeps the temperature comfortable. Birds are chirping merrily in the trees behind you. You are at complete peace with the environment.

27. Holding Hands with Someone You Love – Every time she grabs your hand you are overcome with an awareness of how much she means to you. Holding hands is sensual and physically intimate, yet subtle. There are few people you allow to hold your hand, so when it happens you can be sure that the moment is special.

28. Playing in the Water – Water marvels people of all ages. From jumping in puddles as a child, to doing cannon balls in the pool as an adolescent, to enjoying a cocktail in the Jacuzzi as an adult… water is enjoyable.

29. Making Someone Smile – You notice that your colleague has been under a great deal of stress with meeting a deadline, so you take it upon yourself to complete one of her indirect responsibilities for her. As soon as she realizes what you did, she comes into your office with a big smile on her face. “Thank you”, she says. You just hit two birds with one stone, because making her smile just made your day.

30. Finishing What You Started – You just finished up a big project you’ve been working on for the last few months, or maybe you just finished your first marathon… Either way, you finalized what you set out to accomplish. The feeling of self accomplishment you get when you finish what you started is by far one of the most rewarding simple pleasures life has to offer.

Sunday, February 21, 2010


“No Mom. What part of ‘Walk of Shame’ made you think it was a good thing?”

— Young lady walking down Bedford in a vurrry short skirt. Presumably on the phone with her mom. I love you Brooklyn. (via exceptforthisone)

My mom and I had a conversation like this once, it was about my brother being mad at his friends for calling his Ex girlfriend a whore (my brother still liked the girl that broke his heart)

anyways so my mom is explaining this to me and I say, they are doing that whole support you're friend thing,

Its like when my ex-boyfriend was making out with this girl in front of me and all my friends walked out with me saying "she's fat" and so on. its that having you're friends back its Bro's before Ho's

"Don't call her a ho"

"I'm not calling her a ho mom is a saying"

I then try to explain to my mom what bro's before ho's means

Friday, February 19, 2010

Oh happy friday


I am going to another show tonight and boy do I need it, I am going with the girl I always go with and taking a girl from school that has been wanting to go, it should be super fun!

The Venue wants me to get there like 4 hours before the actual show starts to get a table which I think is odd but I am going with it and will get to hang out with friends so I guess worse comes to worse we'll go grab some food or something.


You know what is odd about this crowd that goes to theses shows? No one moves...They all stand around and take pictures. Which makes me sad. One of the things that made me fall in love with going to rock shows was that here you are all these people from different back ground together for the same love of music, moving to the same beat in the same way and feeling the passion, sadly at these shows I only get that from 5 other people, but I get in the zone and forget it all.

Its going to be fun and I always have fun. Its going to be good to be able to hang out with the guys today before they head off on tour for awhile


I didn't sleep much last night and ended up having to take pain killers because I had to lug 20 pounds of groceries home and my body hated me. but rock and roll will always wake me up!!


or I might just crash in the car on the way up there....

Well whatever you all do I hope you have a Rockin weekend!!

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Inspired by love

How I feel today


Sometimes we all get Discouraged by love, its not happening the way and when we planned, its happening with friends around me, its sneaks up and happens to me.



So here are some love inspiring things:


“Hope is the most exciting thing in life and if you honestly believe that love is out there, it will come. And even if it doesn't come straight away there is still that chance all through your life that it will.”


“Somewhere there’s someone, who dreams about your smile, and finds in your presence, that life is worth while, so when you are lonely, remember it’s true, somebody somewhere is thinking of you.”-Pamela Daranjo


and how cute is this site:

I know love will come my way I believe in it with all my heart, so until the day you come I will be waiting.


In other news I haven't been able to sleep lately, I think its because I have no idea when my roommate is coming back, first he told me the 22nd and then told me as I was walking out the door to spend the weekend at a friends that it would be the 16th or perhaps the 19th I am slightly unsure so I think I can't sleep because I am waiting for my calm to end and for him to enter the door


and I wish all of this for you, Its been a great pleasure sharing my life with you!